91/365

I spent all of this hot hot day at Lenny's after school, lounging in the pool. It was fabulous. Rinse and repeat tomorrow!

44/365

I was all about the new Starbucks Pike's Place coffee. For some reason a little Starbucks van was at school giving out samples and you know I was all over that. The actual time spent in the classroom today pales in comparison to the time spent outside sunning waiting for the classes to start. I sat in a tree and people stared at me. Then I lay down on the grass, and an Asian family walked by and took a picture of me. What's with all this picture business lately? My fingers look a little freakish in this picture, by the way.

3/365

I was so full of FAIL today, mainly because I feel like I take on other people's FAIL. It just felt like a badbad day. 

I have a very hard time getting up and doing something because it's just too easy to sit still. Motivation, I lack it. Hopefully this will be the Spring Break of getting caught up.

I want to be good at something, and I want to have a good future. I don't want to hold back anymore but I'm so so afraid of myself and what I'm (not)capable of. I can't really explain it, but I'm so scared that it makes me want to cry.  

Things I knew but realized today: I'm pretty selfish and I don't know how to stop.